Friday, May 30, 2014

Five for Friday, vol 121

1. Listening to you sing and talk to the baby while I'm off doing other things.

2. You sing really weird lullabies, by the way.

3. You are an excellent house husband. It's been awesome to only have to worry about baby and self-care the last month.

4. When you come into the nursery at 3AM just to tell me I'm doing a good job.

5. Not sure when you mastered dog grooming, but seriously. Gold star.

I love you.

Friday, May 9, 2014

Five for Friday, vol 120

1. You've never had a new new car before, and it was so fun to see you so excited to drive it off the lot.

2. you were incredibly patient with my irrational and cranky late term pregnant self. Especially when I got ranty about trivial things.

3. I could not have asked for a better or more supportive labor partner. You made it possible to get through some of the hardest and most painful moments of my life, and you did it with all the love and humor and compassion I could have asked for. It didn't turn out at all how I thought it would go, except for you.

4. You wanted to dress the baby "cute" for his first doctor's visit.

5. You've been awesome since bringing Cal home. Not only are you taking care of the house, but you're doing such a good job making sure in taking care of myself too.

I love you.

Saturday, May 3, 2014

The Final Bumpdate: Week 41

Calvin Charles arrived at exactly 41 weeks, fashionably late and on his own terms, on April 27 at 7:39am.

~ 8 pounds, 13 ounces ~ 22 1/2 inches long ~ born via c-section after 48 long hours of labor ~

We are so completely in love with this perfect little person!

There was nothing that could have fully prepared me for the labor and delivery experience I expected to have, much less the one I actually got. The only thing that lined up with what I pictured was the absolute rock of support that was Kenny. I could not have gotten through the roller coaster of long back labor, less than ideal interventions, lack of progress, signs of fetal distress, and surprise surgery. He was amazing, as was my mom and the rest of the l&d team. It was painful and exhausting, emotionally and physically, but the end result was a healthy little guy who made every twist and turn 100% worth it. Yes, it's a cliche, and yes, I would gladly do it all over again.

This is the face of a girl thrilled to go into labor on her own and head to the hospital less than a week until her scheduled induction. Just shy of 41 weeks pregnant seemed like a mighty fine time to try to have a baby.

This is the face of a very happy little boy (trust me, that's an excited expression) who is very pleased to be headed back home with his (tired) parents six and a half days later.

I am working on writing down the long version of the entire birth story, but suffice to say that I made a plan and the universe had other ideas. And I'm not sure I would have it any other way.

It's been a whirlwind since coming home - surreal to be a parent, a million times easier and at the same time harder than everyone says, and so far the best thing I've ever done. It's one big adventure, 2-3 hour intervals at a time.

So here's to expecting the unexpected and to 41 weeks of anticipation being blown away in just a few minutes.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Bumpdate: Week 40

Baby is the size of a: pumpkin

Feeling: still pregnant! SUPER pregnant! It's amazing all the stories that come out of the woodwork when you go past your due date. Everyone had an induction story! I'm impatient with my contractions and false labor, and fast running out of clothes and shoes that fit comfortably. This is nothing novel for being a million weeks pregnant.

Symptoms: Not a lot of change. Swollen. Lots of pressure and contractions. False labor (boooooooo). Very little appetite.

Happenings: I am so so so grateful that I've been able to work from home the last few weeks. I would be beyond miserable if I was commuting and sitting at a desk, especially being overdue. I am so thankful that my boss has been so flexible.

Induction is scheduled for next week. My doctor gave me the option to try this week, but we agreed that it would have a higher chance of success if we wait, as well as a better chance that I go into labor on my own first. I'm ok with waiting with those things in mind, although it feels like a million years away!

So now we wait. I am over-analyzing every little twinge to try to figure out IS THIS IT???Everyone has advice on how to get things going. I've heard it all, but have been reluctant to try too much. I had a membrane stretch & sweep at my appointment this week (ouch!!), which didn't work. I've been walking everyday and bouncing on my exercise ball. I've taken evening primrose oil and eaten dates, but that's as far as I've gone down the list of old wives' and friends' advice. As much as I dread the induction, I also recognize that no matter what I do, the baby will come when he's ready. I was getting myself worked up with some anxieties over labor and delivery - so many what-ifs and unknowns! Will the baby fit? Will I be able to manage the pain? Will my false labor send me to the hospital too soon and get sent home?

But alas, I control none of those things. Just have to take it one step at a time and see what happens. Hopefully it will be soon! And before the induction date (although knowing the exact date and time to go to the hospital doesn't sound so bad either).

Friday, April 18, 2014

Five for Friday, vol 119

1. You know I want toasted ravioli even when I don't know it.

2. "Where's a good old fashioned box lid full of Chinese food when you need it?"

3. Your new cologne makes me all swoony.

4. Epic back rubs.

5. You won't admit it, but you know you love the Melting Pot as much as I do.

I love you.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Bumpdate: 39 weeks

Baby is the size of a: mini watermelon

Feeling:  Kenny asked me how I was feeling the other day, and I answered by sending him this photo.

Pretty much sums it up.

Symptoms: Much puffy. Many cranky. I'm running out of shoe options (flip flops, soft moccasins, and one pair of ballet flats). No position is comfortable for longer than a few minutes. And contractions too! And absolutely everything gets on my nerves!  I am so pleasant to be around! As much as I've enjoyed this process, I am fast approaching the "get this baby out" phase.  I'm starting to have issues with maternity clothes as well as my shoes. Most of my third trimester items are very wintery - lots of sweaters and long sleeves. As spring is quickly approaching, and I've got the oven on high heat to finish baking this baby, I am constantly overheated.

Happenings: I've been having prodromal labor (false labor) for about a week now and let me tell you, that is for the birds. Lots of pressure and discomfort with no result. I feel like a water balloon about to pop, just to have it stop as soon as I change position.  I've tried timing things, but since they vary so much, it doesn't tell me anything.  I was disappointingly the same dilation and percent effaced as my 38-week appointment, which was a bit discouraging. I was convinced that the contractions I've been having would have meant something was happening!

My OB brought up the possibility of induction and I have to admit that it completely took me by surprise.  She has been super pro-natural and pro-spontaneous labor until now, and I'm not even at my due date, but she wanted to lay out my options.  The baby has been measuring completely average up until week 36, and suddenly took a jump, especially based on fundal height.  Doc is concerned about his size presenting issues if we wait too long, so going until week 42 is officially off the table.  She offered induction as early as next week (40 weeks, 3 days) but that feels way too soon for me.  I'm still really hoping to have a low-intervention birth, and inducing too early brings in way too many risks for me to be ok with it.  I am much more comfortable with giving it a little more time to see if I go into labor on my own with a big baby.  That means that we will most likely have an induction scheduled on the 30th (41 weeks, 3 days) if nothing happens between now and then.  My hope is that having more time after my due date will mean that my body will be more receptive to the process and there will be less chance for a failed induction/surgery. 

I have had very little anxiety about labor and delivery up until this point, and now I am definitely nervous.  Induction is super common and I suppose I should have been better prepared for the possibility, but I'm still a little taken aback.  I guess this is why you should never get too attached to a vision/plan of how you want things to go.  It's just too unpredictable.  There's nothing to do now but wait and see, and hopefully let nature take it's course.  It's a long time until the 30th and anything could happen between now and then.  I'll be over hear bouncing on my yoga ball, eating dates, chugging raspberry leaf tea, taking walks, and hoping like hell I make some progress by next week.  As it turns out, this is something of a family tradition for first-borns.  My grandma went two weeks overdue with my dad, my mom almost three with my sister.  Even my mother-in-law was overdue with Kenny.  What fun!

In the meantime, my boss offered me the opportunity to work from home while I'm in this super uncomfortable time.  It took me awhile to decide to take her up on it. The flexibility is awesome but there's a big part of me that still feels like I need to be a brave little toaster and buck up. I'm not a workaholic by a long shot, but I hate staying home when I don't have to.  Still, it's wonderful not to worry about my long-ish commute or what the heck I'm going to wear that's even remotely office-appropriate.  My team took me out to lunch on my last day at the office, and I had the chance to get my desk in tip top shape, and I'm still able to take care of work from the comfort of my aforementioned yoga ball.  Sitting at a desk wasn't helping the insane swelling in my feet and ankles, so it's probably a good thing health-wise too.  I just hope that the baby comes sooner as opposed to later, or I might get a little stir crazy.

I guess I wasn't destined to have a full moon baby after all!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

The Nursery

I absolutely love how the baby's nursery has turned out!

When we first started the process, I knew I didn't want it to be too overdone or themey - just a cozy, comfortable space for our little one to get started. Originally, I wanted to paint the room light blue, but Kenny disagreed. We had painted this color (Olympus smokey emerald) when we moved in, and decided to keep it. As it turns out, he was totally right.

Before we knew the sex, I had already picked out grey and white elephant-themed bedding from Pottery Barn Kids, and that got the ball rolling. It is SO EASY to find elephant things for baby, so I had to restrain myself before it turned into a paciderm parade in there.  I prefer a more ecclectic style, but still coordinated.  I planned to add coral and mint for a girl, but if course we went with navy blue and mint for our boy.  We opted for the dark furniture really early on as well - a convertible crib, chest of drawers, and dresser that doubles as a changer until later. We don't plan on buying this kid furniture again! We had an awesome experience with Goodnight Rooms in Ballwin and would recommend them to anyone in the St Louis area!

One of my showers had a book theme and the cheesetot already has a very nice library, but we didn't have room for bookshelves. Thanks to Pinterest, I ordered a set if spice racks from IKEA, Kenny painted them grey, and tucked them behind the door to use an otherwise limited space.

Curtains with blackout liners - Target. Flying elephant mobile - PB Kids (obsessed - seriosuly the cutest thing). Clyde the Clydesdale - Aunt Katie. Chevron quilt and blankie - handmade by a friend if my mom. Shadow boxes - Target (which had been collecting dust in a closet since we moved here and almost went to Goodwill). 

The chevron footstool was one of the first things we bought (Target), but I had the glider for almost a year before getting pregnant. It was my grandma's before she moved to an assisted living facility, and I could not care less that it doesn't really match. A new slipcover from Amazon gave it a little facelift and I love it. Tucker does too - he's not going to be happy when he finds someone else in my lap there!

The shadow boxes over the crib are my favorite project, and are completely tapping my limited DIY craft skills. They will have his initials in them, so they aren't completely ready to hang up just yet.  I was inspired by a couple different things on Pinterest (like yarn-wrapped letters, a colorful paper cut-out collage, and "locally-grown" art) and it's been a lot of fun to put them together.  I'm really looking forward to seeing all three finished and hung up soon.
 I love how the first two have turned out! Elephant parade! Bow ties!

The dresser is a pretty cool little piece of furniture. It's a "flip" style, meaning when we're done with diapers, we can turn the whole thing upside down, drawers included, and it will be a regular flat-top dresser. No changing hardware or worrying about a separate changer-tray scratching the surface.

Absolutely love the elephant bumper from PB, even though it won't stay in the crib once the baby is sleeping in there.  We have navy and white sheets also from PB Kids' Harper collection, including chevron and polka for crib sheets, changing pad cover, basket liners, a striped lamp, and lots of storage containers. PB was my splurge, for sure, but they make it so easy to match things!

I ordered all three prints from Etsy and had them framed at Michael's. We have just a couple more things to add to the walls (with his name on them) and it's finished!  Last but not least, one more touch of elephant is currently waiting to find it's place on the wall...

It was a labor of love to put together, but so much fun! We have some little sentimental things like Kenny's pound puppy and my Jemima Puddleduck music box, plus the little doggy-shaped piggy bank we bought on a whim the weekend before I took my first positive pregnancy test.  Lots of elephants, but not too many (I hope).  I'm thrilled with ohow easily it came together, considering it really was somewhat random.  It feels put-together but still comfortable - exactly what I hoped for! 

Now we just need a kiddo to put in it!