Friday, December 31, 2010

Reverb10: Core Story

What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world? (Bonus: Consider your reflections from this month. Look through them to discover a thread you may not have noticed until today.) (Author: Molly O’Neill)

When I look back at everything I have written for Reverb for the past month, one major theme becomes immediately clear.

I am happy.

I can't think of a better story than that.

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Reverb10: Gift

This month, gifts and gift-giving can seem inescapable. What’s the most memorable gift, tangible or emotional, you received this year? (Author: Holly Root) 
Getting married is ten pounds of fun, particularly because there are tons of presents involved.  Mr LikesIt and I have all sorts of grown up things in our house now, thanks to the generosity of our friends and family.

One of my faaaaaavorite gifts was my shiny new Kitchenaid Mixer.  Before I got it, I thought people who called it life-changing were exaggerating.  Um, they aren't.  I liked to bake before, but this thing has taken it to a whole other level.  I feel legit.

I had been using a conglomeration of pots and pans that dated back to my first apartment after freshman year in college.  When we received our new set of Calphalon pans, I jumped up and down like it was Christmas.  It is so nice to be able to use a quality set of cookware everyday.

Not everyone wants china, but I was set on it.  Mr LikesIt chose our pattern, Waterford Ballet Icing in Pearl.   I cannot wait for an occasion to use it.

I could go on and on.  We got almost everything we registered for, and then some.  A Le Creuset oven, every day dishes, silverware ... everything we needed and wanted to settle into our house.  It's been so much fun to use it all, and I am using every opportunity I can to do so. 

I do love a well-stocked kitchen, don't you?

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Reverb10: Defining Moment

Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year. (Author: Kathryn Fitzmaurice)

I got married this year, did you hear?  I can't think of any seminal moment that defines this year better than being a bride.  So much time and attention was put into that one day in 2010 (and most of 2009, too).  This year was defined by weddings ... mine, and several of our closest friends and a lot of family. 

 I've loved weddings ever since I was a little girl, so the process of becoming a bride over the course of the last two years was most definitely a time that defined and shaped my life.  I am happy and excited to move on to the next stage of my life, but I truly loved planning our wedding, sharing that experience with two close girlfriends and two cousins.  Through it I also became a blogger, something else that has come to define me and how I view my world.

I've only just begun recapping my wedding day ... it's taken a back seat to Reverb this month, but I love looking back on the photos.  I can't wait to finish, and finally close that chapter and move onto the next ... Newlywed, Wife, and beyond!

Here are my recaps so far...
I bought a dress and completely changed it.
We had a marathon final week of engagement.
I giggled my way through our rehearsal.
Mr LikesIt got grilled at our rehearsal dinner.
The groomsmen ran amok in downtown Springfield. 
The girls got gorgeous.

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Thursday, December 30, 2010

Reverb10: Achieve

What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today.  (Author: Tara Sophia Mohr)
It's a really silly thing, pointing directly to my extreme superficiality, but I want to achieve a better quality wardrobe next year.  Is it my greatest dream?  No.  But it's certainly something on the to do list.  I feel like my other goals have been beaten up ... the horses "get fit" and "run races" are dead, dead, dead.

A few months ago, I coordinated a massive closet purge.  I had been holding on to items sizes four through fourteen, and wearng very little of any of it.  I was bogged down, tethered to negative feelings and dread every time I opened the closet door.  I sent four laundry baskets of items to Goodwill, and moved a full wardrobe's worth of "incentive-sized" items to the guest room closet.  Now my closet is empty to the point of sadness.  I need new clothes, yo.

I used to love shopping in bulk.  If one shirt is good, then three are better!  I love a deal, of course, but I was filling space with cheap crap that I didn't like very much, nor could wear often due to risk of falling apart.  One of my goals in 2011 is to take better care of myself - this means running and eating well, of course, but it also means skincare, regular manicures, and shopping for quality clothing items.  I have a grown-up job with a grown-up paycheck.  There is no reason not to set some cash aside for something fabulous from time to time.  (And yes, Mr LikesIt, I do mean cash, not-on-the-credit-card, only-after-bills-are-paid purchases.)  I'm learning to be a saver too.

The caveat to this rule: no matter what I buy, no matter where from, nor what the price tag says ... I must love it.  Any amount you spend on something you will wear once and decide you despise is a waste.  I want to invest in my clothes, but I also want them to make me feel good.  I've been in a rut lately of frumpy, boring things.  I am a firm believer that your inward notion is reflected in your outward appearance.  I am more likely to care for my diet, fitness, and personal space if I feel good about myself.  Another caveat?  I must have a specific purpose in mind for wearing it.  No more spangly going-out tops for the girls nights I don't attend.  No more party dresses for the weddings we have not yet been invited to. In the meantime, I want/need some new accessories.  Thanks to Mr LikesIt, I have new pearls to add to the rotation, so that's a start! 

This does not stop at my wardrobe, but the house itself is also a target.  We've lived in it for two years and are just now settling in.  Surrounding ourselves with beautiful objects that makes us happy, well, that never hurt anyone.

I want to feel good, look put together, be stylish.  I used to, but I have had just crapped out self esteem lately that it's been so hard.  In light of moving towards that as of right now, all I know how to do is keep trying.  I am now allowing negative self-talk to disrupt progress.  A bad outfit does not equal an ugly person.  Fat is not a feeling.  

So let's go shopping! 

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Reverb10: Ordinary Joy

Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments. What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year? (Author: BrenĂ© Brown)
I don't have children in my life (yet), but I think being able to care for something smaller than you can offer a huge sense of joy day-to-day.  I bought a tiny dog from a pet store a little over four years ago (soooo naive, I am aware), but I had no idea how much happiness and laughter that little pile of fluff would bring to my life.  Our Tucker Bear, that silly little eight-pound pooper, is a constant source of entertainment and joy. 

  He has turned me, and my whole family, into crazy dog people (he inspired both my parents and my sister to adopt rescues, so the Universe evened out in that sense, right?)  I love his quirks and mannerisms and habits.  And dammit, he is so freaking cute.  He is the cutest dog in the world, don't even try to argue.  I am totally head over heels for this little dog.

He sleeps in our laundry baskets, on top of packed clothes, and on any other soft surface on which he can gain purchase (except, of course, for the dog bed we bought him).

He takes over more than his share of the bed, and kicks Mr LikesIt in the ribs.

He will make sure you're watching him when he poos outside.  He likes witnesses to good deeds.

He makes yip-yip-yip noises when he dreams.

He guards the house fiercely against UPS drivers, Christmas decorations across the street, and passers-by.

He lets me dress him in holiday-themed attire, and pretends to enjoy it.

He has learned to tell time and knows when to demand his evening rawhide.

He eats the chewy bits out of his ProPlan Shreds like a kid eating the marshmallows out of his Lucky Charms.

He comes back to bed in the mornings after Mr LikesIt lets him out for snuggle time with me.

He loves nothing more than to have his tummy scratched.  If you sing, "I'm gonna get your tummy" to him, he will flop over instantly.  Tummy-getting is his bliss.
He rarely wags his nubbin tail, but will do so feverishly and with reckless abandon when his people come home from work.  We call it "prepping for take-off."

He tucks his nubbin tail under for a turbo boost when you chase him around the house.  It's the Tuck-and-Run, his signature move.

He stands on the deck after going potty, just on the other side of the door, holding out for the best treat you have to offer.

His greatest nemesis is the doorbell, including ones on TV.  Dominoes commercials disturb him especially.  If you turn to him in a silent room and ask "Who's here, Tucker?!" with enough enthusiasm, he will go look.
He has left nose prints on all the lower windows of our front rooms.  See that little face in the window?  He is always watching.

He stops squeaking if you make cow noises at him.

He presses his face against the door when he wants to go outside, just quivering.  And if the screen door is closed, he faceplants into it trying to run out before you can get it open, every. single. time.

He once treed a possum, cleared a flock of sparrows, and scared three deer out of the back yard, yet he has no interest in chasing bunnies or other more permanent residents of our yard.  Watching him outside is usually like a scene from a Disney movie:
 "Hiiiiiiii, woodland creatures!"  "Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii, Tucker Bear!" 
He frolics, no exaggeration.

He went through an adventuresome phase when I would come home to find him stranded on top of the dining room table, or stuck inside the kitchen trash can, or lounging in a pile of paper towels he shredded from the roll.  To this day I have no idea how, other than he spent days plotting these little field trips.
He has laid claim to any and all blankets and throws in the house.  We borrow from him.

He wants what you're having.

He hated all of my exes, but he has always loved Kenny.  It was a sign, seriously.

He cracks out for baby carrots.

He's made friends with the neighbor dogs.

He gets adventuresome in our over-sized yard, wandering all the way to the bottom of our steep hill to investigate and mark.  And when he sees you standing at the top, he will run so hard to get to you that he barfs on the deck stairs.

He loves marking our mailbox area with a fiery passion.  No dog will lay claim to HIS day lilies.

He only knows "sit,"  but one paw always comes up automatically from years of trying to learn "shake."

 He puts the "terror" in terrier.

He got out of the yard once (nearly killing me), and spent his short bid for freedom being nosy in the neighbor's garage, and came home at the first mention of treats.

He loves games of tug-o-ware and fetch, particularly with toys he knows by name: Beaverton, Pink Dog (aka his Girlfriend), and Captain Quackers.

He hides under the guest bed whenever we have overnight company.  He likes new people and the idea of camping.

He hates pugs.  I think he's a little bit racist.  They make him Hulk out.

He holds grudges (particularly after baths, nail trimmings, and administering meds) and proves his point by cuddling up with Mr LikesIt and staring at me until I notice I'm in trouble.  Those eyes?  Those are smug, look-at-how-much-I-am-not-sitting-with-YOU eyes.

He is an eight-pound space heater.  He's great company on cold nights or if you are feeling sick.

He is prone to static, and spends most of the winter months doing an excellent Albert Einstein impression.

He gets shaved twice a year when he drops a coat.  He looks like a completely different dog, and is actually dove grey underneath all that black and gold.  We keep his legs long on purpose - he's got boots with da fur.

He turns on major dramatics at the mere mention of a bath or a haircut, with epic shivers before he even goes near the water.

He canoodles on the couch with Kenny every night.  They luff each other.

He spends 20 minutes finding hiding spots for new bones, and they usually end up either in plain sight or in the laundry basket.

He runs around the house as though he has the Indiana Jones theme song playing in his head at all times.

He willingly played along with a Mizzou-themed photo shoot so he could be our wedding mascot, with pictures of him on every reception table.

He likes to sit on the stairs in the front hall because it gives him a better vantage point to look out.

He wants to be let outside just so he can sit in the sun.  I am convinced he stores solar power and uses it as his heat source.
He is OBSESSED with Kenny's best friend, Sean.  OBSESSED.  When he comes over, forget the rest of us, SEAN IS HERE OMG OMG OMG SEEEEAAAAN!!!!1!

He once ate an entire box of dry instant oatmeal packets that I had left sitting out.  He smelled like maple and brown sugar for weeks.  Neither of us wanted much to do with oatmeal after that.
He will disembowel any toy shaped like a monkey, but he still has the little grey elephant I got him the day he came home with me. He keeps it nice on purpose.

He love love love loves car rides, but be warned, he will barf on you after exactly two hours.

He had to go on a diet last year and lose two whole pounds.  That's why we call him Tubber.

He lets me cradle and rock him like a baby, but no one else is allowed such nonsense.

If you leave a glazed or a powdered donut in his reach, he will leave you with a naked donut.  Wait a few minutes more, and he will just eat the bottom, leaving the untouched side up to trick you.  Leave a box of donuts in his reach, and you will have a dozen halves of donuts left for your brunch guests.

He can spell w-a-l-k.

He has a Twitter.

My Schmuckers, Monkey, Little Bear, Trudge, Fuzz-Butt, Banana Face, Eight Pounds of Fury, Evil Genius, Puffmaster General, Tubber, Fluffernutter, Fuzzypants, Pupper, Schmucks, Fatty Lumpkin, Tucker Bear Beyond Compare ... no matter what we call him, I am grateful to have him.  He will be five in the spring, basically middle-aged for a small dog.  I can't stand knowing he won't be with us forever.  Who knew such a little dog could make two people so happy?

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Reverb10: Soul Food

What did you eat this year that you will never forget? What went into your mouth & touched your soul? (Author: Elise Marie Collins)
 I ate the best burger of my life this year.  

Mr LikesIt and I have not yet taken a honeymoon, but we spent the weekend after the wedding at the Four Seasons in downtown St Louis.  We had reservations for a schmancy pants dinner at the hotel's Italian restaurant, Cielo, for Saturday night, so we decided to hit Lumiere Casino for dinner the night we arrived.  After strolling the casino floor, we agreed on a restaurant: The Burger Bar.


After sipping on yummy drinks (dirty martini for me and a Guinness for him) and sampling an array of fried items like pickles and onion rings, the closest thing the place served as an appetizer, our burgers arrived.

It was epic.


Now I am going to be honest with you, I love hamburgers, especially the big, juicy gourmet kind where you get to pick from a laundry list of toppings.  Even when they are bad, they're still pretty good, you know?  But this, this was not a bad burger.  This was a half-pound behemoth singing a siren song with crispy onions, garlic aioli, bacon, and a fried egg.  Oh, and guacamole, to make it healthy.  I had to cut it into sections to eat it without wearing it, and it was so good, it almost hurt not to finish it.  I attempted to take it back to our room, but alas, this was not a meal meant for leftovers.  A mini fridge could not contain it's remains.

Forget Italy, after this burger, I didn't need a honeymoon.

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Reverb10: Photo


One of my favorite photos from our wedding day.


We are giddy, happy, goofy.  Kenny is doing something ridiculous, which is cracking me up.  I can think of few things that demonstrate who we are and the fun we have together better than this image.  From the day I met him in our college dorm almost ten years ago, he has had the ability to make me smile, giggle, and laugh my head off better than almost anyone.  I love everything about this photo, and I love that man.  I look forward to a long marriage full of giddy, giggly, happy, silly, joyful moments just like this one.


Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words.

Reverb10: Everything's OK

What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead?
I've talked quite a bit throughout this Reverb project about the major events in my life this year.  I feel like I've been repeating myself a lot, but I keep coming back to the same things that have deep meaning for me.  So many milestones this year, but just a handful stand out. 

One of the biggest lessons I learned this year was that everything will turn out just fine.  The Universe is unfolding as it should.  May 5 stands as testament to that, the day I left my old job. I was let go just before lunch time.  I drove home in tears, and by the time I walked in the door, I had cried it all out.  I sat down on the stairs of my deck, soaking up sun and clarity while I watched Tucker frolic in the yard, excited that someone was home in the middle of the day to pay him attention. It was a quiet, beautiful summer day in the suburbs.  When we came inside, I went into action.  Something in that moment shifted while I sat outside in silence.  My mind was blank.  I did not panic.  I was not worried over our financial situation.  I did not wring my hands in despair or shake my fist at The Man for what had happened.  I knew that it would all work out, but I needed to work for it to be so.  I started applying to jobs, and didn't stop for three straight days.  By the end of the week, I had applied to nearly a hundred positions of all shapes and sizes.  I was not about to become a victim.  Some of those opportunities turned into interviews, some into offers.  By the end of my second week of unmployment, I was faced with making the decision to go back into the shark-infested waters of the staffing industry, or take the leap into a contract position that would lead into the corporate side of recruiting.  I took the riskier path, but in the end, it was exactly the right decision, as it brought me to where I am now, living the dream.  I still feel incredibly lucky that it took so little time for me to land on my feet.  I know in my heart of hearts it all goes back to how I reacted that first day.  I could have wallowed. I could have let myself become bitter and useless.  But I didn't, and it all worked out.  Happily ever after, the end.

(reverb10.com)

Monday, December 27, 2010

Reverb10: New Name

Let’s meet again, for the first time. If you could introduce yourself to strangers by another name for just one day, what would it be and why? (Author: Becca Wilcott)

It's so funny to see this Reverb prompt come up, considering this week I have finally begun the process to change to my married name.  It's been Facebook Officially since September 5th, of course, but for some reason the US Government doesn't accept that as appropriate proof of identity.

Instead of using a new name, let me tell you a story of when I was a little Meaglette, one of my mother's favorite stories.  I was about seven, possibly a bit younger, and feeling angsty.  I was one of three Me/a/g/h/ans in my elementary class and not satisfied being known as "with an A."  Mom picked me up from Grandma's house one day after school, and she noticed that I was brooding, or so much as a second-grader can.  When she inquired as to the source of my dissatisfaction, and I asked a simple question.

"Mommy, why didn't you name me Theodora?"

See?  A very simple question.  Bless her heart, my mom suppressed what I am confident was a snort of laughter and asked why I was asking such a thing.  Apparently, I was convinced that I was not meant to be a Meagan.  I should have been a Teddy, and to be a Teddy, you must first be a Theodora.  When we got home, I flounced up the stairs to my pink-all-over bedroom and continued to brood over the unfair nature of the universe and why I had been named incorrectly.

Dear Mom and Dad, thanks for not listening to your pre-teen drama queen ... Because Teddy Likes It dot com would have been a very different sort of website.

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Saturday, December 25, 2010

Reverb10: Travel

How did you travel in 2010? How and/or where would you like to travel next year? (Author: Tara Hunt)

We spent 2010 not traveling.  Between saving for a wedding, planning a honeymoon, getting laid off, canceling a honeymoon, and living in limbo, there wasn't much room left for globe trotting.  Our travels were on the small scale, and the trips that stand out in my mind were for weddings of several dear friends. 

Chicago, IL

Peoria, IL

Springfield, IL

Washington, DC
 Just to name a few!


We had a mini-moon excursion after our own wedding, but it was a hometown tour.  And honestly, as these things go, we didn't really leave the room.

2011 is going to be the year of seeing the world together.  We have trips planned to see the country together, and also visit our friends that are now scattered all over the States.  It's something Mr LikesIt and I are so excited for, and we talk about it constantly.  When we say we have our whole marriage to take trips, we mean it, and we're starting as soon as we can!

(reverb10.com)

Merry Christmas!

Warmest wishes from our family to yours!  We hope your holiday is merry and bright!

 
Mr and Mrs LikesIt loooooooove Christmas!

Cheers to a beautiful New Year!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Holiday Tradition

The week before Christmas is usually one of a flurry of activity for a procrastinator like me. This year was no exception, especially since I haven't been feeling super festive until very recently. So what better to do when you have all your wrapping, cooking, and just a little shopping than take a night off to take in a basketball?




The annual Mizzou-Illinois Border War is always a great game. Being from a family with both avid U of I alums and Mizzou basketball players, we take the rivalry to heart.

My uncle, one of the Illini faction, was kind enough to offer a couple extra tickets. Mr LikesIt and I were the lone yellow shirts in a sea of orange, but it was fun nonetheless.



Very exciting game, though my uncle may not agree. The last few minutes were crazy, and three technicals later, the Tigers emerged victorious.

Thanks Santa! Let's hope the Insight Bowl goes just as well next week!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Grown Up Books Are Overrated.

Growing up, I loved to read ... still do, in fact. Even before I knew the words, I loved looking at books. I even would take them with me when I went to sleep at night. My grandmother would take us to the library every week and my sister and I would fill bags to bring home with us. I love that my mother-in-law is a librarian and that our kids will be surrounded with books someday, too.

I read just about everything I could get my hands on, but I especially loved fairy tales. Someone brought up the question recently about our favorite books as children, and I was filled with nostalgia.

Dealing with Dragons, and the rest of the Enchanted Forest Chronicles, was a favorite book. I read the whole series again recently, and still love them. My worn out copies are still on the bookcase in my living room. They put Harry Potter to shame!

The BFG. Who doesn't love Roald Dahl??

Fear Street. I don't know anyone who was a tween in the 90s that didn't read these, Goosebumps, Christopher Pike, or some combination of all three. They are iconic!

The Redwall Series. I couldn't place the name of these books at first, but they were the first I thought of. I reremember stealing them from my sister's room and reading them over and over. I found myself on Amazonlooking for them again. To my surprise, there are now over twenty in the series! The first two are on their way to my house, despite my vow to not buy any more books, and I can't wait to read them again. I got the hardcover version this time ... hopefully they won't fall apart like my sister's copies did, from use.

What were your favorite books as a kid?

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Reverb10: Future Self

Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?) (Author: Jenny Blake)
Dear Five Years from Now Meagan,

You're thirty-three years old now.  You've celebrated five years of marriage and seven years of home-ownership.  I hope by now you've traded in that awful car for something more reliable, adopted a new dog, run several races, finished the house projects I am just starting to dream about, and maybe even started a family. 

Also, I hope you're a lot healthier than I am right now.  If you're not, I am very sorry for not doing better today to set you up for more success down the road.  If you're not at a healthy weight with much better habits, it will be my fault and my failure.  If you're where you want to be, I commend you.  If you're not, I hope you know that you can still start fresh.  Don't do it for yourself, do it for Ten Years from Now Meagan.

Love your face,
Today Meagan

.......
Dear Ten Years Ago Meaglette,

Oh to be eighteen again.  You are young, bright, full of promise.  If only you would see it!  If you don't stop telling yourself how ugly you are, you will spend the next decade learning how to fix the damage you're doing to yourself right now, both physically and mentally.  Losing "just five more" won't fix the things that you think are wrong - because nothing is wrong with you!  Eat something, for the love of God, and take this chance now to learn to be healthy and active. Please try to remember that you are graduating from high school in just a few months, and life will get so very good, so very soon.  When you go to college (you know, the one you picked specifically to get away from home and who they think you are there), don't be afraid to be smart or funny or pick a major that actually challenges you.  Think long and hard before you take that boyfriend with you (you haven't met him yet, but you will - consider yourself warned).  Don't cut your hair off - you will regret it.  Pay more attention to that sweet-faced boy from St Louis who will live upstairs from you.  Take some business classes like your mother told you.  Don't open that credit card.  Be a good girl, Little Meaglette.  Take better care of yourself, and start right this minute.  Remember to be nice to your parents, and go talk with your grandpa every single chance you get - you have no idea how fast time with your family will fly by, because you're young and you still think it will all last forever.  And clean your room, too.

Love your size-four ass,
Meagan in 2010

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Reverb10: Beyond Avoidance

Beyond Avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?) (Author: Jake Nickell)
Amazingly enough, Fate stepped in for me this year and took care of an issue I had been totally avoiding.  It's really no surprise, considering how strongly I believe in the power of intention and the like.  It's also not breaking news by now that I lost my job in May.  It was a job that was slowly killing me.  I was overworked and under-rewarded.  I was burnt out from ten and twelve hour days.  I was working at an intense pace that was getting me no where, and it was making me bitter and unpleasant to be around.  I wanted very hard to believe that I would be successful and break through the plateaus I kept hitting, but in a competitive, commission-based industry, I just wasn't happy.  It's really hard to maintain that sort of drive when your heart just isn't in it.  You have to want it, and I was majorly checked out. 

By the time the end drew near, I had spent a lot of time wishing my circumstances were different.  I wanted to be somewhere else, doing something else.  In spite of the stress and low morale I struggled with on a daily basis, I was terrified to make that leap into uncertainty and change.  I liked my coworkers, and when I made small progress, it was a total high.  I wanted to believe that if I kept pounding it out, no matter how half-hearted I felt about it, it would eventually work. 

I had many conversations with Mr LikesIt about looking for a new job, but I pushed it off for months.  I would get as far as a blank job application in front of me, and would close it out time and time again.  I was unhappy where I was, but it was a puddle I was familiar with.  I was so scared to put myself out there and make that shift.  I told myself that I would do it next weekend, month, after the wedding, next year ... the devil I knew was way better than the one I didn't. 

When I was let go, I was devastated at first, but within a few hours, I realized what I felt more than the bruised ego and the worry over finances was actually relief.  I was pushed towards something I knew I wanted, but had been unable to do on my own.  I was able to go out and start fresh, find great new opportunities and put myself in a better, happier, more satisfying situation.  To this day, I am not sure if I ever would have left.  Without that circumstance, I would probably still be in the same place, wishing for something different.

But it all works out in the end.  I feel like I am living in this "happily ever after" sort of cliche right now.  It wasn't always easy, but looking back, I am really glad it happened.

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On the Weigh: Baby Steps

Making progress, albeit slowly.

WI: -.4
Total: -3.8

I will not complain about a loss. I will not complain about a loss. I will not complain about a loss. I will not complain about a loss.

I lost a half a pound this week.  I have no business whining about it.  Yes, I wish it were more, considering my gain last week, but it's still in the right direction.  I am settling into the new WW plan, and I think it's going well.  There is more of a learning curve than I expected, but overall, I still like it.

I am hell-bent on losing again this week.  Holidays have never been easy for me, but there is no reason I can't break that pattern.  I'm going to a meeting Friday morning, so I will have new weeklies for our Christmas Even dinner, and I am earning as many APs this week as my schedule allows.  They won't count towards that meal, but it can't hurt either.  We're spending Christmas Day with Mr LikesIt's family, who tend to be very health conscious when it comes to cooking, so I am not overly worried about that part.  Otherwise, it will be really nice to have some time off to work out and relax a little! 

Lessons Learned:
  • Maybe I do need to eat all of my weekies.  I had about 10 leftover, plus a handful of APs.  My bigger losses have come in weeks where I am eating more.
  • Earning APs every day is a lot more fun than trying to dig out of a hole with a couple big workouts.  I can imagine that is healthier in the long run anyway.
  • Eating out is hard.  I suck at good restaurant choices.  Alas, Horseshoe Pizza was worth it.
  • The food in the cafeteria here is just not worth it.  I have struck out there officially.
If you're celebrating this week, have a healthy and happy Christmas!

Reverb10: Healing

What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)
Can you be healed if you aren't broken?  On the surface, I would tell you that nothing is wrong with me to be fixed.  Sure I have issues.  Everyone has anxieties, fears, weird habits, and neuroses ... but those are part of your make-up, not cracks to be sealed.  I would tell you that I don't need fixing, but then again, that's because I already have been. 

As I have said before, this year has been an evolution for me.  My life has changed a lot over the course of the past twelve months, and I am so grateful for all of it.  In the face of all of this upheaval, I have learned that I am strong and resiliant and loved beyond belief.  Did that heal me?  Only in the sense that I finally realized it was there all along.  I have a great family, a wonderful husband, true and dear friends, and a comfortable lot in life.  Even when things were hard and my path seemed to go off-course, those remained unchanging.  Maybe it took a lot to see it, but I am glad I did.  If there is something broken,  I can fix it myself, and I have people to lean on in the process.  If the Universe throws me a curveball, I can still move forward and better my circumstances.  I have control, even when it doesn't seem like it.  I may not control what happens, but I have learned that I can control my response, and that will dictate success in the outcome.

I have never been an overly confident person.  I can fake it til I make it, but I have always held onto seeds of doubt about my merit and worthiness.  When something good happens, I tend to hold my breath a bit, waiting for it to be taken away, for someone to say "oh just joking, this was meant for something else."  I looka round now and want to pinch myself that this is my life.  I love what I have, where I am, what I do.  I feel more confident and self-assured than I remember ever feeling in my life.  I don't know what allowed or forced that change to occur, but it has been a healing process.  I am allowed to feel good, to revel in the blessings, and I don't have to wait for the other shoe to fall. 

A year ago, I would have told you I loved my life, and I would have been lying.  But now? I sincerely mean it.  So much has changes for the better, and so much is exactly the same.  It's been an amazing, eye-opening, evolutionary, blessed, healing year.

(reverb10.com)

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Reverb10: Try

What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it? (Author: Kaileen Elise)

In 2010, I was going to try something I had never done before: running a race.  It didn't happen, and that's okay.  I've got all the time in the world ... plus, I'm signed up for one in April.


No, not a marathon.  Are you crazy?  I'm doing the 5k, crazy pants.

Reverb10: Lesson Learned

What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Author: Tara Weaver)
It will all be okay.

It's been a crazy year, full of change.  The highs have been incredible, the lows have been heartbreaking.  But here's the thing: I'm okay.  All the cliches are true - everything happens for a reason, there is a plan, when a door closes, what doesn't kill you ... as I look back on 2010, I can name an instance that proves every one.  I am so glad to be where I am today.  It's been a year of lessons, and I feel like a better person for it.  I have the capacity for resilience, love, commitment, and joy that I didn't know was possible.  I can bounce back, and come out on top.  I am lucky, and I can work hard enough to make luck happen. I wasn't always sure of my path, but I feel more confident about my future than ever. It feels great.  It really has been a great year.

(reverb10.com

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Reverb10: Friendship

How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst? (Author: Martha Mihalick)
Dear Friends,

My perspective wasn't changed or altered over the course of the year so much as it was validated by you.  Sometimes, there is no better feeling than knowing you're right about someone. I know I have spoken about my wedding countless times now (and this won't be the last, that's for sure) but there is something about planning that sort of event that shows you who you can count on for support.  I am blessed beyond belief to have amazing girlfriends in my life, and my wedding day would not have been the same without you standing by me.

I have known all of you for years.  We may have met in the dorms, in the sorority house, in a high school history class, or on the playground in the fifth grade, but here we are, still best friends after all of this time and all that has happened in our lives.  We've been there for each other through boyfriends that became exes, and boyfriends that became husbands.  Parties, Spring Breaks, road trips, and nights in on the couch watching the OC.  We've shared the successes and accolades of med school, grad school, and new careers.  We've been roommates and bridesmaids and aunties to puppies, kittens, and babies alike. We don't see each other nearly enough now, but I know every time we do, we get right back to the best parts of our friendships.

I never doubted that you would be there for me on for the wedding.  You were the first people I called to talk about Mr LikesIt when we went from friends to more-than, and the first phone calls I made when we got engaged.  I could barely wait to ask you to be my bridesmaids.  And seeing you in those blue dresses and pearls, well, I was honored, to say the least.


When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time.  
- Maya Angelou

Everything I knew and believed about you before - beauty, kindness, unwavering support, loyalty, and love - were validated on that day. My beautiful, amazing friends.  I am so lucky to have you!  Thank you so much for everything you have done for me over the years.  You have done nothing but prove me right time and time again.

Looooooove youuuuuuuuuuuu.

(reverb10.com)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Reverb10: 5 Minutes

Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. (Author: Patti Digh)
 The timer is set ... here are my 2010 memories. 

Planning a wedding ... a little frog named Squishy ... seating chart WWIII ... highs and lows of registering for wedding gifts ... the coffee creamer mushroom cloud ... a whisper fight in BB&B ... walking up the church steps holding my Daddy-O's hand ... one, two, three, four, five dress fittings ... tearful vows ... a snowy March wedding ... champagne and Arch views ... a quiet moment under the church steps ... Molly lost that loving feeling ... marching Mr LikesIt back to a Peoria hotel room ... a Kappa Wedding Triathalon ... cheap glue stick high ... cake tasting ... crying laughing and Google Doc ghosties ... the best mini moon hamburger I have ever eaten ... almost burning the deck down ...  Kate and the art of the Sway ... a vintage veil and bright blue shoes ... terrifying, mind-numbing interviews ... Friendsgiving ... The Wild Card ... kickball and glory ... learning how a KA mixer and a cookie scoop can change my life ... flat tires ... running in the rain ... the worst customer service ever ... 3 2 1 photobooth! ... putting on my wedding dress and bringing tears to my father's eyes ... seeing it all come together ... a bunny ornament ... a chef's hat ... a kitchen brewery ... beautiful, wonderful, amazing ladies in blue ... Tucker vs the flock of birds ...flutter-fetti explosions ... Gameday in CoMO ...Grandma Virginia getting down on the dance floor ... Tiger-stripe cupcakes ... the search for perfect blue shoes ... a career roller coaster ... a giggle fit ... a new name ... I Do Brew ... happy tears in the World's Fair Pavillion ... a year full of love ...

How fast five minutes goes by.  So many memories I treasure from this year!

(reverb10.com)

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Reverb 10: Appreciate

What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? (Author: Victoria Klein)
One thing I have come to appreciate more than anything this year is my marriage.  Getting married was an amazing experience, truly the best day of my life, but my appreciation goes so much deeper than flower arrangements or photo albums.  I love my husband and I will treasure our wedding memories, but what I mean to say is, I appreciate the fact that we were able to get married in the first place.

Over the past few years I have become a huge advocate for marriage equality.  I believe that Love does not have a gender, and that every Loving couple has an innate right to pledge themselves to each other in the eyes of God and of the State.  I believe that the government therefore has a responsibility to protect each and every one of those couples as stated in the Constitution, protecting their Life, Liberty, and Pursuit of Happiness.  Our wedding day was filled with joy, but it saddens me to think that there are so many people in this country that are denied that same experience.  As a hetero couple, it is so easy for Mr LikesIt and I to take for granted the rights we have as married persons.  No one questions the legitimacy of our relationship, nor the claim we have to each other (or our health benefits, bank accounts, or visitation rights).  It is so easy to forget that not everyone gets that same treatment in this country.  It absolutely baffles me that a country founded on principles of liberty, a country currently at war overseas defending those principles, will also deny basic freedoms to a minority population on the homefront.

But since the wedding, it is in my mind more than ever.  A few weeks ago, Illinois passed a civil unions act, meaning that the state we were married in has made progress I can wholeheartedly appreciate.  In an odd twist of fate, the day it was signed into law was also the day I received our marriage certificate in the mail. I feel so fortunate that I have found a person I want to spend my life with, and also so fortunate that we were able to perform the simple act of entering into a legal and binding state without protest.  I appreciate the privilege we have in being married, and I hope to honor the institution for decades to come.  I sincerely hope that soon we will be joined in matrimony by any other couple that so chooses, in any state. 

(reverb10.com)

Monday, December 13, 2010

Reverb 10: Action

When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

Recently, I interviewed for a long-term job with the company at which I have been contracting since August.  It was a grueling three-and-a-half hour interview that left my brain feeling squishy and not quite able to tell right side up from down.  I waited three weeks to hear the news, putting on a happy face and pushing through my work day while they interviewed other candidates. I commiserated with friends and bemoaned my in-limbo state to just about anyone that would listen. This afternoon, I was offered the job.  I was told that it was because I work hard, I am good at what I do, and I follow through on my word.  I earned my place there, something that not everyone got the opportunity to do. After the last six months I have had, I am thrilled, honored, and so very relieved to say yes.

Do you believe in the power of prayer?  The power of intention?  I do.  I believe that I made that wish to the Powers That Be ... "I want a job here" ... and I was able to take the steps needed to make it happen ... "and I will do anything to get it."  I had a ton of support, there were fingers and toes crossed for me all over the country, in fact.  I truly believe that if you put something to the Universe, and if you work hard at your end of the deal, the Universe will come through in the end.  I started a ten-week temp assignment in August with no promise of more, but I threw myself into it, and I made it happen.  Aspiration or action?  I think it's both.  Did it happen because I worked for it?  Yes.  And because I wanted it too?  You betcha.

Sometimes action is quiet.  Sometimes it's as simple as a whispered prayer on an elevator on the way to a job interview.  Sometimes action is obvious.  Sometimes it is a fifty-hour work week and being the last one on your floor on a Friday afternoon.

"If you work really hard, and you are kind, amazing things will happen to you." Conan O'Brien

I am so proud of this achievement.  I am so happy that I put this intention into the unknown, and so excited that it came back to me this way.  I am thrilled with the opportunity, thrilled that my hard-work has paid off.

Sometimes, when you work really hard, you get exactly what you want.

(reverb10.com)

On the Weigh: If you don't really follow the plan ...

... Then you don't really get results.
Time to clean it up and move on.

WI: +1.2
Total: -3.4

So gaining blows, by the way.  I am not sure what I really expected, considering I didn't do really well with neither eating right or working out.   I had a rough weekend, and it bled into the week.  By the time I snapped out of it, it was a bit too late to save the scale.  I was surprised to see it pop up that much, but I am blaming a wicked lady time as the main contributor.  When you eff up your birth control, you will be bloated beyond belief ... consider yourself warned.

The good news: I am back on track and already feeling better.  Staying in control on the weekend is proving to be key.  I only used about 10 flex points this weekend, so I feel really good about where I stand for the rest of the week.  I am happy to still net a loss overall since the start of this whole show, but I would be lying to you if I didn't say I was disappointed in myself.  The new WW plan seems to make it easier to get back on track, though.  I was determined when I left my Saturday meeting that I was not going to let my bad feelings turn into a tailspin. 

The biggest disappointment of the weekend was the total FAIL of our new treadmill.  We purchased a fancy schmancy Nordic Track from Sears Outlet last weekend and it was scheduled to arrive Saturday morning.  We had measured the space, stairwell, and doorway, and we knew that it had to be disassembled to fit.  The sales associate assured us that it would be fine, and even made a note on our sales receipt.  Earlier in the week, we realized that our address was wrong, so over an hour was wasted on the phone with Customer Service (outsourced, mind you) to correct that.  We also found out at that time that the delivery time, which we had paid an extra fee to lock in, was also incorrect.  After jumping through hoops, it was still going to arrive in the evening, but I was still so excited for it to get there, I didn't care. 

Cut to the doorbell ringing Saturday night, and Sears is there with our new baby.  Our fully assembled hoss of a baby.  That's right, the sales associate either had no idea what he was talking about or just fed us a line to make the sale, but the treadmill could most definitely not be taken apart to get in the house.  There was no way it was going to make it down our narrow basement stairs (complete with 90 degree turn) and through the door to our little exercise room.  After trying to haggle some sort of deal, we had to refuse the delivery and return everything.  The manager assured me on the phone that the refund would be processed on Sunday, but as of this morning, guess what hasn't been done yet?  Bad customer service is just so so so frustrating!

So we're going to keep looking at other treadmill options, since with the cold I refuse to run outside.  Yes I am a giant baby.  We're even considering joining out community center, since it has a fitness center and an indoor track. 

So after a somewhat high-drama weekend, I was glad for a new day this morning.  I feel pretty good about where I stand with WW going forward, and I am determined to end the year with losses and positivity.  I am currently reading Women, Food, and God and giving myself all sorts of pep talks about the whole thing. 

How was your week in weight loss?  How do you handle a gain?

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Nutty Bacon Cheeseball

Kenny and I have a pretty hectic holiday schedule, like most other people.  Between family and friends, we have parties and functions every weekend in December, sometimes doubling up on plans.  So many of these are potlucks that I have been going through my old favorites to figure out what to bring. Cheeseball is usually a big hit.  I mean, how can you go wrong with cheese and crackers? 

Yes, that's a Pioneer Woman tshirt.  I got it at her book-signing.  I like wearing it to cook.

Nutty Bacon Cheeseball
2 packages (8 oz each) cream cheese, softened
1/2 cup milk
2 cups shredded sharp cheddar cheese
1/4 cup bleu cheese, crumbled
1/4 cup finely minced green onions
1 jar diced pimento, drained
3/4 cup pecans, chopped, divided
10 slices center-cut bacon, cooked, drained, and crumbled
Salt and pepper

Place cream cheese in a mixing bowl.  Gradually add milk, beating to combine,  Add cheeses, onion, pimentos, half the bacon, and half the nuts.  Beat at med-high speed until well-blended.  Season with salt and pepper to taste.  Transfer mixture to a large piece of plastic wrap.  Form into a ball and wrap tightly.  refrigerate for at least two hours.  Combine remaining bacon and nuts on a plate.  Remove the plastic wrap from the cheeseball and roll lightly in bacon-nut mixture.  Press remaining mixture onto sparse areas.  Re-wrap in plastic and refrigerate until ready to use.  Serve with crackers, pretzels, or bagel chips.

Om nom nom nom.  

 Betcha can't eat just one!

Reverb 10: Body

This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)

This year, I started running.




At the beginning of 2010, I started a training program that my friend Julia helped me with.  I enjoyed the first few workouts, but as I progressed, I began to dread the workouts.  It culminated in a race I was supposed to run in April, but a flat tire on the way to Kansas City caused me to miss it.  I took it as a sign from the Universe that I was not meant to be a runner and my training petered out over the summer.

The past few months, I've been feeling the itch again.  I read something on Healthy Tipping Point and it stuck with me, kind of circling the back of my mind.  Caitlin said that she runs to feel alive.  I had really never considered that perspective.  Towards the end of November, I got my running shoes back out and hit the road.

The morning of Thanksgiving was rainy and cold here in St Louis, but I wanted to run anyway.  I went out for a two-miler with my Couch to 10k training app (which I love), and also started up my Nike+ GPS to track my distance.  I jogged a bit, ran a bit, but realized a ways in that my C210k had been paused accidentally.  Once I got it back up and going, the training resumed.  I soldiered on through the drizzle.  At one point, I crossed a driveway just as a family was arriving to presumably go inside for their holiday dinner.  The man cheered me on as I jogged past.  He will never know how that small gesture of acknowledgment and support from a total stranger touched me.  Before I was just a chubby kid plodding through a workout, and afterwords, I felt like a runner.  Even though I was only set to do two miles, I ended up completing a little more than a 5k.  It was absolutely exhilarating.  A workout had never felt that good, and it changed my entire perspective on how running could make me feel.  It was a joy to complete, even with chapped lips, heart-pounding, and muscles burning, it felt amazing to be outside, alive, and aware.

Ever since, I have enjoyed my workouts so much more.  I've stalled out a bit because of the weather, but while we figure out possibly buying a treadmill or joining a gym, I am anxious to get back at it.  I know what Cailtin meant now when she said that she runs to make herself feel alive.  I can't wait to get back at it.

2011 will be my year of miles.  Julia is still a major motivator and one of my biggest cheerleaders.  I'm even signed up for that race in April again, and this time, I'm going to finish it.

(reverb10.com)

A Birthday Week

Mr LikesIt celebrates his birthday today - a whopping twenty-eight years old.  If you're counting, that makes him younger than me by a few months, which he constantly reminds me, but now we're even once again.  He went all out for my birthday in October, setting a dangerous precident for his own to follow suit.  I think he did that on purpose.

We've been celebrating all week.  Mr LikesIt is nearly impossible to shop for, but I still managed to find some things to surprise him.  He's not too thrilled about turning a year oler, but presents have certainly helped ease the pain of it all.  And cookies.  And foot massages.

Manly Birthday Gifts

Engraved Collar Stays - Red Envelope


Wall Street Journal subscription


Brita Pitcher (for work)


Super Mario Brothers for Wii.

And have no fear, I still have a few things up my sleeve for Christmas. 

Dudes are hard to shop for.  What have you bought for your guy lately?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Reverb 10: 11 Things

What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life? (Author: Sam Davidson)
This list was actually harder to compile than I thought it would be.  I am not fond of resolutions, and that's what this feels a lot like.

I want to give up ...
  1. Skipping workouts.  To quote my mother, "Later never comes."
  2. Cafeteria lunches.  The food is just .... meh.  I can do better bringing from home, plus it saves a ton of money.
  3. Pretentious, unkind, toxic people.  Life is too short to expose yourself to people that make you feel badly.
  4. Impulse shopping.  My budget and newly cleaned out closet will thank me.
  5. the Twilight franchise. I am over trying to convince myself that I like it.  I just don't.  Buffy for liiiiiiiife.
  6. Staying up too late on my laptop.  I need to make time to wash my face and get enough sleep!  Unplugging for awhile is good for me, my relationship with my hubs, my complexion, and my book collection.  This one has been mandated by Mr LikesIt.
  7. Eating my feelings.  Let's make Ganeen Roth happy and FEEL our feelings, shall we?
  8. Corn-fed and inhumanely raised meat/food products. Easier said than done, since I am sometimes a lazy grocery shopper.  I really do believe, however, that stores will sell more of these products if people continue to go out of their way to buy them.  I have no interest in going veggie, but we are what we eat eats.  Happy chickens make good eggs, you know.
  9. Dirty dishes left in the sink.  This is potentially one of my worst home-habits.  It's also kind of gross. The kitchen is my Zone of Clean in our chore distribution.  No more putting it off on poor Mr LikesIt!
  10. Being my own bartender. Bad, bad things happen when I pour my own drinks.  2011 is the year of drinking like a grown-up.
  11. Forgetting to floss.   I have great teeth.  I want to keep them.
And one to grow on ...
12.  Buying "incentive-sized" clothing, and poor-quality ones at that.  I did a massive cleanout recently and two-thirds of my wardrobe was too small.  That's so depressing.  If it doesn't fit right now, I'm not buying it.

To sum it up, I just want to be healthier and happier, and be a good wife and a good roommate, and better to myself and the world around me.  You know, the usual end of the year schtick. Blah blah blah ...none of this is revolutionary by any means.  More than anything else, I don't need resolutions this year. I'm already working on those things, so I just want to carry on with them. 

(reverb10.com)

Friday, December 10, 2010

Brown Butter Toffee Blondies

Rich, chewy, comforting ... these bars are the epitome of yummy.  Martha doesn't mess around, yo.

Brown Butter Toffee Blondies
2 1/2 sticks unsalted butter, plus more for pan
2 1/4 cups AP flour, plus more for pan
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1 1/2 tsp salt
2 cups brown sugar, packed
1/2 cup sugar
3 eggs
2 1/2 tsp vanilla extract
1 cup chopped walnuts
1 cup toffee bits

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.  Butter and flour a 9x13 baking pan. In a saucepan over medium heat, cook the butter until it turns golden brown; remove from heat and let cool.  Whisk together flour, baking powder, and salt.Combine browned butter and both sugars and stir until well combined.  Beat in eggs one at a time.  Beat on med-high speed until light and fluffy, about 3 minutes.  Add the vanilla and beat until combined.  Add flour mixture, walnuts, and toffee bits.  Mix until thoroughly incorporated and pour into prepared pan.Bake until a cake tester insterted in the center comes out clean, 35-40 minutes.  Transfer to a wire rack to cool completely.  Serve with vanilla ice cream,  Enjoy! Adapted from Martha Stewart Cookies.

I cannot stress enough how good these things are.

So I have been cooking and baking a TON since the wedding.  It's been so fun to use all the great gifts we received, the bulk of which are for the kitchen.  I've been making a solid effort to use the items as much as possible, and I've been doing a pretty good job of busting out the new goods.


::cue chorus of angels::
My Kitchenaid Mixer has been glorious.  I use it a TON and it has a permanent spot on the counter.  Is it any surprise?  If it were legal, I'd marry this thing.

Reverb 10: Wisdom

What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)

 I said yes.

I'd say it's played out pretty well.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Reverb 10: Party

What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans. (Author: Shauna Reid)
 2010 has been a year of parties, to say the least.  I feel like I've been celebrating  since the clock struck midnight on January 1.   It was an amazing year.  It had it's fair share of lows, but the highs were off the charts.  One party after the next.

New Years ... happy 2010 and happy engage-iversary!
Bridal shower hostesses.
First family wedding of the year.
We dig an open bar.
Gifts for a bride-to-be.
'Stache Bash
TheBachelor.
a lovely summer wedding
he putta ring on it for Kate's bachelorette.
Kate got maaaaaaaaarried.
Graham crackers.
we get down.
bridal fiesta
The Bachelorette
Kappa Wedding Triathalon, Lap Two.
Groomsmen hit the town.
mini-moon, major celebration
BFFs, for serious
Happy Thanksgiving!
 And of course, this.  Always this.
 Best. Party. Ever.
 (reverb10.com)