Friday, January 25, 2013

Five for Friday, vol 85

1. You make a mean salad. And you chop veggies like a boss.

2. You caught a huge error in the billing for my surgery that took a several thousand dollar bill down to a couple hundred. I don't know how you're always able to see things like that and get them fixed.

3. You have wholeheartedly embraced my goal of making our lives healthier, and my goodness that makes it so much easier.

4. You're kind of a hippie about vaccines and medicine. You're just like your grandfather when it comes to trusting the doctor (even when she's your cousin).

5. No matter how I am feeling, what I am wearing, or how in presentable I really am, you always, ALWAYS think I am beautiful. And you tell me, and show me, and flirt with me. And I just really appreciate that.

I love you.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Five for Friday, vol 84

1. "We don't have a yorkie, we have a porkie."

2. "this shirt is a little more hipster cut than I'm used to. Like a city fit . I think I need a country fit so I have somewhere to put my biscuits and gravy."

3. Why a city boy who works in finance wants to watch Buck Wild, Amish Mafia, and Duvk Dynasty is beyond me, but we do. Frequently.

4. Going to the grocery store with you is torture because you love to meander down the aisles looking at absolutely everything.

5. You watch Homeland with subtitles so you don't fall asleep.

I love you.

Friday, January 11, 2013

Five for Friday, vol 83

1.  You have managed to hound both our insurance provider and our cable/internet provider into correcting terrible billing.  I think you actually made money from AT&T.  I don't know how you do it.

2.  After dealing with some awful customer service (see #1), you left messages with two managers to compliment the people who were able to help you and solve the issues.  I appreciate that you're tenacious with these huge companies, but you also give positive feedback when it's merited.

3.  Thank you for keeping house this week when I have been so all over the place and not really functional.

4.  I like that you like your new sweaters.

5.  Pinky promise!

I love you.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Not alright.

It's been a really difficult couple of days and I am all over the place right now.

My grandmother was admitted to the hospital about a week ago with pneumonia and they discovered lung cancer in the course of her treatment. It's not allowing the treatment for the peumonia to be effective and she's being placed in hospice on Wednesday.

I went up to spend the weekend with family after working from home on Friday. Kenny wasn't able to come with me because he's sick, and we didn't think it was a good idea. My sister flew in from Colorado and we all just sort of huddled. I knew, philosophically, that this would be difficult when the time came, but it is so so so much harder than I ever thought it would be.

My boss gave me leave to work from home (seriously the most understanding and flexible team ever, such a blessing in all this) but I went to the office anyway. I need to not just sit at home and feel sad. I need the distraction and routine. But the bad news is that my emotions are barely contained and the most trivial little things are pushing me close to the edge. I don't know if this is normal or of I am just not dealing that well.

I am so grateful for getting to see her this weekend.
I am scared and heartbroken over what's happening.
I am grateful to have Kenny and my family and friends to lean on.
I'm worried for my sister, hundreds of miles away from all of us and by herself.
I am worried about my dad and mom and how they are dealing when they aren't trying to be strong and take care of everything.
I hate the feeling of bracing for bad news everything the phone rings.
I hate feeling so damn hopeful and knowing at the same time how silly that is.
I am grateful that she's not in pain, she knows what's going on, and they are doing exactly as she's requested.

But God, this is so hard.

Please keep us in your thoughts. I am trying really hard to put on a brave face to get through this, but we could all use some happy thoughts right now.

Friday, January 4, 2013

Five for Friday, vol 82

1.  You're very fun to plan a party with.  We make a good team.

2.  Turns out that you make a pretty good smoked brisket too.

3.  It's cute that you feel guilty when Penny sleeps in her crate, even though she likes it.

4.  Has it really been four years since you proposed at the stroke of midnight on New Year's?  It's been such a short time, but such a long time since then.

5.  Thank you for being so much better at bills and finances than I am.  I've learned a lot from you, and I appreciate your patience with my learning curve.

I love you.